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Carrie’s Story

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Carrie's Story is the first in a two-novel series and should be read before its sequel Safe Word.


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news and reviews calls it one of the 25 Sexiest Novels Ever Written (May 2006)
"...the American twist on Story of O. her own take on chateau porn and the seductiveness of submission....bristles with wit."

From reader/reviewers:

"SM for smart girls . . . . On the surface [Carrie] is compliant and submissive, yet inside she is wry and cynical and sort of astonished at the irony of what she's doing -- and she tells the story with that voice. And the story is just so... believable; the author got all the details right, from her bike messenger outfits to the punk rock references. . . . The book is flawlessly written, intelligent, and never talks down to its readers." -- Reader

"No question it is highly erotic. But there are many other novels that achieve that. This one transcends the mere erotic and captivates the reader. The author generates a tension that draws the reader on and enfolds you in the story. I have not found that in an erotic novel since reading The Story Of O - and I can give Carrie's Story no better praise than that comparison. If you enjoyed The Story Of O then Carrie's Story and the sequel Safe Word will enthrall you." -- Reader

From web pages, Blogs, e-zines and other periodicals:

". . . unlike anything I have read. It is very graphic in detail and does explain many scenes that may make some readers somewhat uneasy. There was excellent development of characters as the reader is taken through Carrie's
exciting journey. Aside from the warning comments, I congratulate Ms.Weatherfield on an extremely wonderful book." -- Mila Bean, Coffee Time Romance

"A bit of modern erotica that slyly evokes the classics, both as context and as gristle the main character chews upon. Written with wit, style and intelligence, dirty and tough enough for the hardest to please. If you live an urban life, you'll recognize this character. I do! Great smut for those with a literary bent." -- Kallisti

". . . partly a Keystone Comedy romp with whips, leather, and chains, partly a stunning tribute to Pauline Reage's Story of O, and partly an odyssey which -- if they did erotic flicks - the Coen brothers might have titled "O, Sister, Where Art Thou?" . . . . There is plenty of juicy, passionate expression in Carrie's Story, but, like much of what we review at Clean Sheets, this is literate smut for the discriminating reader with taste as well as... hmm... let's call them compulsions to exercise the deeper, shadier side of human desires." -- William Dean at Clean Sheets

"Hilarious and harrowing . . . just when you think things can't get any wilder, they do." - Black Sheets

And (how many erotic authors can boast of this?) from a selected list of the best, woman-friendly sex-toy purveyors:

"This thoroughly engaging novel is destined to become a modern-day classic, beautifully blending an intricate S/M underground world with the erotic flowering of a young, sexy and wry-humored female . . ." -- Good Vibrations

"Engrossing and electric" --Toys in Babeland

"This book was so hot it was hard to read at work. This reviewer was writing naughty emails to her boyfriend before she'd finished page one, and the weekend that ensued was a blur of delightfully kinky sex. Carrie's Story is extremely well-written for an SM novel -- the protagonist is strikingly intelligent, the story is genuinely interesting and the wonderfully smutty scenes sizzle off the page." --





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Carrie's Story
by Molly Weatherfield
August 2002



Meeting Cute and Pathological Politeness: Our intrepid heroine tells how it all started

The party wasn't my kind of scene at all. It was given by a rich lawyer who seemed to know film people. I was there because my roommate Jan wanted to be a filmmaker, and was sort of sniffing at the outside of that scene. We'd gone to a movie in the City and had run into some people she almost knew, and they brought us along to the party. It was the kind of party you feel self-conscious at if you're dressed like I was — black jeans and a San Francisco Mime Troupe tank top. It was a rare warm San Francisco night in October. Women were wearing fantastic silky floaty-looking things, and men were looking very pulled-together, all GQ and Armani. Jan seemed to be having a good time with the film people. I got a beer and drifted around, feeling shy.  

They were showing videos in one of the rooms, on a huge high-resolution screen, so I wandered in and sat on the floor, figuring that this would keep me from feeling too lonely and at loose ends. I caught the last fifteen or twenty minutes of  "Tribulation 99," which made me glad, for the first time, that I had come to this party.

Then, somebody put on an S/M film. It was awful, clearly playing for camp value, and, I gathered from the hoots and conversation attending it, because somebody at the party had — when in desperate financial straits years ago — shot it or directed it or acted in it or something. 

It was all very trashy and inept, but I got into it. Actually, it was very embarrassing that I got that deeply into it. I felt my cheeks get hot and I found myself staring and sweating a little and going slack jawed. Quickly I shook myself out of it, hoping nobody had noticed. The lights came on and I started out of the room, when Jonathan sort of materialized and fell into step beside me. 

"They really are in that business, you know," he smiled charmingly. "I've met them."

"You mean the people in the movie, Sir Jack and Mistress Anastasia?" I was proud that I could answer so calmly. "Are they good at what they do?"

"Actually, yes," he said. "They're not very glamorous, but, well, yes, they are good at what they do."

I had no idea what to say next, it suddenly occurring to me that I was talking about S/M to the most gorgeous man at the party. Thin, tan, intelligent looking. Little black pearl stud in his ear. He wore the loose, elegant suit as though it were no big deal, and those wonderful, animal brown eyes were sexy, friendly, and cool enough to pretend he wasn't having to put me at ease.

Oh my goodness, I thought. Wow. Middle, maybe late, 30s. Rich. Straight, or mostly so, anyway. And beautiful. I'd never said it before about a man, even to myself, but there it was, he was. I felt gawky and somewhat sweaty. And tongue-tied. But I did like to look at him, so I did that.   Which he had the good manners to accept as a compliment. And continued chatting, pleasantly and intelligently, not following up on Sir Jack and Mistress Anastasia.

We went out to the balcony and sat on a stone balustrade, overlooking the bay. And pretty soon I was telling him about school and literature and what I was actually interested in. Which was troubadour poetry, which got us talking about the south of France. He was smart and well-read and he seemed to know everything about medieval architecture. Not that I really care a whole lot about medieval architecture, but I'm sure he'd picked up on how I'm an incredible sucker for expertise — of any kind, really, short of maybe earned run averages and runs batted in.

I thought he was terrific — I mean I was charmed and flattered and, face it, he was certainly the oldest and classiest person who had ever shown any romantic interest in me. I felt like maybe I actually liked him too, but truthfully, I was so infatuated — and turned on, first by the porn movie and then by him — that I couldn't really tell, and didn't entirely care. I wanted him to take me home with him, though. I knew that I cared a lot about that.

Until finally he put his hand on my arm and took a deep breath. Oh my god he has AIDS or something, I thought wildly. But.

"Look," he said, "you're pretty and very bright and I like you, but that's not why I've been talking to you for the last hour. The thing is, I'm got something much more serious in mind. I want you to be my slave."

Oh. My. God.

Oh my god and ee-yew, gross. Talk about your conversation stoppers, I thought — this certainly gives a whole new meaning to what they call "meeting cute." I just stared for a minute while I carefully considered whether there was any chance I hadn't heard him correctly. But Jonathan has wonderful diction and it was quiet out there on the balcony and my hearing is just fine, so there was really no mistaking what he'd said. I slid off the balustrade and turned to go.

"Uh, well, it's been nice talking to you," I stammered. Damn, he had seemed so fantastic, and it turns out he's just majorly sick. But it would make a great story. I could already imagine telling it.

"Hear me out," he said. He seemed so unflustered that I found myself stopping and turning to him again. "Look," he said again, patiently, "we were watching an outrageously tacky and stupid porn film in there and you could have mopped the floor with those jeans." His matter-of-fact gaze rested on my hips a heartbeat longer than it needed to, I thought.

"So," he continued, "I don't think you're nearly as shocked and scandalized as you'd like to think you are. After all, it's not as though you haven't thought about these things before. And at some length, I bet. In fact, my guess is that you've been jerking off to S/M porn since you found a copy of Story of O when you were a twelve-year-old babysitter. But I don't think you've ever done more than read and jerk off. Which is a shame. Because I think you'd be good at the real thing. I'm good at the real thing."

Thirteen and a half. Almost fourteen. I mean that's how old I actually had been when I found that copy of Story of O. Of course, that's typical of Jonathan's almost pathological politeness — one of the little things I learned from him that it never hurts to give the other guy credit for a little more charm or precocity than he or she actually possesses.

So probably he knew he was flattering me a little, in a kind of perverse way, but he obviously also knew that, in all the ways that counted, he was dead on right. S/M porn was one of my secrets. I didn't understand why I liked it, but I knew it was important to me. It seemed to occupy a space in my head next door to the more typical romantic passions — little girl crushes on actors and rock stars and even some English teachers, the silly sweeping pleasure I always get reading Jane Eyre. And — Jonathan had made it so embarrassing — the romantic feelings I'd been having talking to him before the conversation had taken this disquieting turn. I felt very frightened and exposed.

But I had to say something. Enough about me, let's talk about you. "You got good at it hanging with Sir Jack and Mistress Anastasia?"

"I hang with a much better class of pervert. Well, my friends are richer, anyway, and they're a lot prettier. But you're right, in a way. I do respect those silly-looking guys from the movie. It takes passion to act out your fantasy when you're gonna look so graceless. I'm good at spotting passion — sincerity, maybe. I spotted you."

He reached into his pocket, found a piece of scrap paper and scribbled his name and address on it — in predictably tiny, super-legible writing. "For a good time," he said, "come by, tomorrow at 3." And wandered back into the party.  

A star is born, I thought insanely, and noticed that my jeans would mop up the whole terrace, at this point maybe the whole mansion.

And the next day at 3 — reader, I went to his house.


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